Over BBQ at Redbones, I had lunch with an entrepreneur whom I’ve long admired from afar. The conversation took a quick turn when we both talked about our personal insecurities.
This entrepreneur talked about how he came east from the Midwest, turned down MIT when he was offered a killer financial aid package elsewhere, and still battles personal insecurities.
I’m the same way.
On some days, I’m still that poor immigrant kid from Indonesia. I guess this is one of those nagging personal demons, involving thoughts that go through my head: Am I smart enough? What did I miss today? Why does my head feel like it’s going to explode at times?
That lunch with the entrepreneur means a great deal to me. He was honest. So many people go around projecting that “it’s all good.” They’re cool under pressure, while I am at times swimming in worry.
I decided long ago that I want to embrace authenticity. Be who I am. Only work on initiatives that are meaningful. No spin, no half-measures. A life where passion is prime and conviction paramount.
So, I’m trying to accept my personal anxieties as opposed to mask them. They’re a part of who I am. So, control the worries, but make do with them.
As The Good Wife says: “Jo, you are who you are. It’s what makes you entrepreneurial.”